This is a really personal blog and I want to share it with you as a statement of my need to change.
In the last few days I have had a serious event happen which left my marriage and relationship in tatters. It was something that could be worked through. Nothing like infidelity or anything like that. It was to do with being clingy and controlling.
I suffer depression. Staying at home and dealing with it everyday effects me greatly but it wasn’t till the events of the last couple of days that I realised how serious it was. I really had no idea how my actions affected my wife.
My wife and I are completely open and share everything so to have this revelation hit me at this time was not only very frightening but also made me hit rock bottom. I honestly had lost all will. I knew I could change and I made a start at that by finally speaking to a professional about my problems.
My wife knows how much I am scared of doctors but I would give up everything just to be happy with her and my children.
Sometimes, through times of utter turmoil and pain, good things can arise. All our problems were aired and I really do believe we are closer than ever. Like we used to be. She has told me she is much happier and to be perfectly honest with you I am happier in myself too.
Don’t let life become a mundane day-to-day drudge. You have people around you that love you. Sharing the happiness and love is what a relationship is all about.I guess I forgot that. The fact we are so honest with each other is something that I will cherish for the rest of my life. I love my wife more than anything in the world and the thought that we will be together for the rest of our lives, happy, is all the comfort I will ever need. This is the kick up the ass I needed.
During this time just hearing from an old friend bought me back to reality. I realised I was not alone and there were people who cared. I was going to make a difference.!!!!!
Obviously this is a very personal blog. For this reason I haven’t linked it to my Facebook. This is for my readers. I hope it can be motivating in a time of need should any of you go through a relationship crisis. This is why I have not blogged for a couple of days. Talk, compromise and do what you need to do to get things back on track. You will only ever have one true love. Mine is with my wife Shareen and all of my kids.
To my wife. I am sorry. I will be the person you fell in love with. I love you babe. I may not be perfect but being in your arms is.